Thursday, June 25, 2009

Hope she will be recover soon~

As usual, i will pack food for my granny whenever i am on my way back home. Granny have been requesting to eat noodle for her dinner. Went to kopitiam & packed roasted meat w/ wantan mee for her & myself.

When i opened the door, i did not see granny as usual sitting in the living rm w/ lights on, waiting for me. All i heard was her calling out for me while she was sitting on the floor outside her bedrm. I was shocked. I put down my things & went to ask her if she have fallen down. Negative is the answer i have gotten from her.

As my granny cant control her bowels, she have to wear disposable pampers. She asked me to help her changing her pampers. I went near her & smell of urine. She had urinate on her pants w/o wearing any pamper. I try to asked her to stand up but she is too weak so i decided to carry her up instead. I realised that she is much heavier than i thought. In the end, I clean, change her pamper & soil pant. Checked if she wants to have her dinner but was told that she did not have any appetite.

I went to the living rm & realised that the food was untouched. She had not taken a single food or drink for the whole day. I started to worry & suspect that she could have a fall the day before yesterday cos i found her lying on the floor in her bedrm when i am back home.

I told my uncle abt it & he have a talk with my granny to check if she do have a fall these few days. Answer: Positive. With some persuasion, she agreed to go to the hospital. My uncle is afraid that she may have hurt her head due to her complain of giddiness. 10 mins later. ambulance came & my uncle accompany my granny to Changi hospital.

Now, here i am at home helping to clear up the mess in the house & also waiting for my uncle to call me on the result from his side.

Hope everything will be fine & she will recover soon.

" Happiness is nothing more than good health and a bad memory. "

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

A cancelled trip made me feel useless

We met our friend to have supper with the our couple friend at Geylang for dim sum on Monday night & a friend of mine mentioned on the Jetstar on-going promotion to Taipei which cost abt $279 per pax/round trip. I was a bit tempted to it cos have always wanted to go but never had a chance to. Sad right?? My bf seems a bit interested so i went back to my company the next day to see if i have sufficient leave for this trip.

I received an sms from my friend yesterday night on the total charges for flight & hotel. As i was busy so am unable to return msg to her. Cos we planned to have a 1 week trip there in Aug due of the PH. The cost of the hotel seems a bit steep for me so i decided to have a check in net to see if there is any cheaper bargain. I found that direct booking with the hotel is cheaper than those which book through some online booking agent.

I was anxious of my finding & send an sms to my friend to inform her on this. We are exciting discussing on the cost & before anything i need to check if my bf have book his leave for the trip. I called him up & checked with him, in the end we ended the call unhappy.

He feel he is quite financially tight these few months becos of a lot of spending this month. I keep asking him if he really dun want to go, what i gotten from his reply is.. Can. can go.. spend all the money lor if you wanna go.. i feel so upset.. if he do not want to go could say so, but then he say dunno leh all the time. The worse is he quickly end our conversation by saying.. well, that it right, then bye!! I gonna put down the phone.

Well, i was feeling upset & useless at that moment. Upset is becos of his reply to me. If he feel that way, we can have our trip cancelled. I am ok with it. The most i can still have the trip next year with my friends. I dunno why he have to sound in this way & made me feel that i am demanding. To me it's just a trip no big deal although a bit disappointing.

Feeling useless cos this gave me a track back of what he had told me sometime back. Remember he told me that his friend can buy his gf/wife this & that becos anything happen he still have his wife to support him what abt u?? I was like, thanks for reminding that i am poor, useless & unable to supportive to him if anything happen. This kind of things cannot be compare as both of us gals work & earn in different ways. She had a shop as income where at times maybe earning more or less. As for me, i am just only a normal 8-6pm account gal with a fixed income earning less than market value outside.

At times, he feel that my friend can get a Gucci bag for his hubby but what can i give him?? He likes expensive watch which i wish to buy it for him but my income does not allow me to. What can i a person like me who have lots of burden on hand buy these kind of things. I felt so helpless. If i am born to have a golden spoon on my mouth, do i have to feel in this way??

On my way back home, many thoughts flowed into my mind & this thing have been making me feel so depressed that i shed tears. Not becos of the trip cancelled but was this thing that made me feel so upset.

Is it true that people who are born to be poor will be helpless in this kind of thing?? I really felt so.

Anyway, i still wanna thanks my friend for inviting us to join them for the trip cos she knows that i really wanted to go but too bad guys i still have to forgo this trip again. Hopefully, we will have it another time.

I do hope to get over everything & have a happy start tomorrow. Yes, I can do it!

" Life is rather like a tin of sardines - we're all of us looking for the key. "

Monday, June 15, 2009

D day of my acceptance of our 2nd stage

We went to collect my ring from Goldheart at AMK Hub before heading to Ah boy's house for his baby full month. I was quite satisfied with the ring & it also min requirement of what i want.

You guys must be wondering what is this ring i am mentioning abt?? Yeah, that's my proposal ring. I guess another question should be popped up from your mind must be: Why am i collecting the proposal ring instead of him popping the ring to me during his propose?? Reason due to: i choose it, in case my boy gotten the wrong design i want. Gals should know that guys are always insensitive to this kind of thing. =p


After collection we met our friend & went to ah boy's house for the celebration.
Congrats Ah boy on his newborn baby boy. so cute~

After we had our buffet dinner, bid goodbye & head down to pick Cyndi up before heading to Orchard for some GSS window-shopping. While we are done with our shopping, on the way back to car park, Cyndi asked to have a look at the ring. Dear showed & he was asked when is he going to propose. The whole process was quite funny & dear felt awkward. Well, i expect him to propose to me at home rather but everything happened at Orchard Car park yesterday night so quickly.


My proposal ring

While on our way to our car, he opened the car door for me & request me to sit in the car.. Next thing before i knew, he was kneeling down & comically pop out the question. " Will you marry me??" Well, this should be the touching moment which most of the gals should have shed tears of joy becos of this. but then i was laughing away due to his expression...

Actually, i was also quite a bit taken by surprised which made me unable to reply back "Yes, I do" .. A gal friend of mine say i am very anti climax but then this is too comical which i really do not know how to respond den. After a moment, i nod my head & reply: "Yes"

He took the ring & put in on my finger & gave me a kiss of acceptance on my hand & lips for the joy. Well, I can say everything happened damn fast.

"Yes, I do"
I know some of the couple proposal are grand & contain of surprises with nice surrounding, flowers but not mine. Cos HE is just a simple & shy guy who i am willing to spend my life in my remaining yrs. So cannot expect much from him.

"That it will never come again is what makes life so sweet. "

I just enjoyed the process of proposing & most imptly is the sincerity in him. Do feel grateful of all these & do not take things for granted cos you will never know that there are some couple out there where they married without any proposing.

So I am already contented with what i have & looking forward to our future. =)

"Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in our hands, because if we are not grateful, then no matter how much we have we will not be happy -- because we will always want to have something else or something more."